
I'm wearing this shirt to the tour :-)
This is where I post ALMOST ANYTHING about ALMOST EVERYTHING. My innermost...expressed.
One dose of chemo and mine is all over the place, on the bed, on the floor, in the trash. Loosing your hair other than how Britney Spears lost hers is appalling and disheartening, even if already expected. A wig is still a wig, no matter how stylish it is. People pay for wigs, they are happy. I got mine for free, I am not quite happy.
At the end of the day, I consoled myself… “Outside, I am getting ugly, inside, something beautiful is happening, the slipping hair affirms it.”
Before that Stage 2 IDC diagnosis in September, I thought I did a good job cruising through the challenges and joys of life. I was making concrete plans for near and distant future, not just for myself but for the family, and execute them one by one in accordance with the time table, which I also created, with approval of the entire household. It’s like everything is under control and since I am good at it, I was tasked with this “control” responsibility, which I do not regret. I maintained the balance until this lump in my breast turned-out to be invasive and behaviorally very aggressive.
The holiday trips or the vacations that I used to plan many months ahead of time were now replaced with regular trips to Kaiser for treatment or other related appointments. My hair will be replaced by wigs and the hours I spent ironing my hair to get a perfect straight will soon be over. Abraham resents this, he likes my real hair, but it’s okay. It is just a small share of suffering compared to the other patients I met at the chemo salon who had severe cases.
Cancer is a strange gift, said a breast cancer survivor, it is indeed. I think only God can take this gift back. When I was diagnosed, I know I needed help to pray. I believe, I have faith… but I am not sure my prayers would be enough, so I solicited prayers. The emails, text messages, and phone calls kept coming. I feel loved. Friends are like God’s angels, they give me strength, and they give me happiness. On my first chemo, Linda missed work to be with me. Despite the time difference in US Mainland and Guam, Buh prayed for me that hour, the giant strawberry juice (my description of Adriamycin, the vesicant that kills active cells, one of my 3 chemo drugs) syringes was hooked into my IV. My friends from work in the
15 Scripts
Hmmm…so similarities are not coincidental; it is a product of recycling or reissue. And why 15 not 20 or more, or less?
Alternate-endings
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Memorized screen play
Call me whatever, but I am not the only one. I had a guy (?) officemate who loved Drew Barrymore’s Ever After like crazy. Like me, he had seen the movie more than a 100 times, like me, he has the VHS and the DVD, and like me, he memorized the lines of the characters in the film. What’s in this flick? A lot of things that reminded me of my childhood. The manor and the furniture, the way they did their laundry, the portable urinals and how they disposed of its waste, the wood-fuelled stove, I’ve seen it all before – the setting in the movie is like a picture of my treasured past, plus ---the romance, the prince most importantly.
Soon to memorize: The Phantom of the Opera, watched 20ish times, Enchanted viewed 10ish times.
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First week showing
The first ever movie we watched on first week showing ---The Dark Knight. The family is fan of the Knight's Tale - Heath Ledger. Other people in the long lines were just curious but definitely not disappointed after watching.***
Anytime of the day, it is common to witness actual filming and sometimes be included in the movie by accident, like when you’re crossing the street or standing by the ATM machine, like my boss did. In fact, a couple of popular movies were filmed right at our office building, Spiderman, The Italian Job, and Fast and the Furious.
One day, an Eddie Murphy movie was being shot downstairs. I got excited I called my officemates and our CFO, “there’s a shooting downstairs, come have a look!” They hurriedly went by the window, sneaked their heads out and asked, “Where’s the shooting? Were there cops?” I told them, “there are no cops; it’s a comedy, an Eddie Murphy movie.” To which they altogether replied, “Oh you meant a filming, not a shooting.” And they all went back to their station holding their laughs. No wonder they all looked anxious-scared instead of anxious-excited when I called them. Embarrassing situation ---priceless!
Until this report I didn’t know that mussels are easily contaminated by heavy metals and persistent organic pollutants that it is used by scientists to measure the water pollution level.
I have always been pleased eating this seashell since I was a teen, it is abundant in our province therefore it is sold cheap. When I was pregnant with Abraham, I consume a gallon-full of mussels just by myself. I liked it ginataan (with coconut milk) with veggies, oven-baked with tomato sauce and ketchup, or simply steamed.
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Sometime in the past, a florist took advantage of the bride’s pre-occupation with the pressures and vanities of the wedding and overcharged for the cost of the blooms and the services, like 30 or 40% more than what she quoted. She knew her way, the florist, instead of approaching the bride or the mother of the bride went straight to the groom to collect. The groom, without confirmation with the bride, who that time was just standing at the opposite corner of the church, handed the florist his cash.
The bride, after learning the groom had paid for more than what they are supposed to pay, was upset and blamed the groom. With a total frowned face, she clutched the trail of her ecru organza gown, hurriedly walked to the car, got in and loudly slammed the door closed, leaving behind the groom who stopped arguing to quiet his spouse. Good thing the bride knew about the incident after the reception when all the guests were gone.
They drove home and slept on different beds on their wedding night.
Each and every June of the years that followed, the couple were reminded they were deprived of a romantic wedding night by a florist, so they made sure each anniversary is sweet and fight-free…working on their 16th year now.
By the ways, the upset bride was me; it was our first fight as a couple.
Summer is a time to be holy. The heat kicks off in time with the holy week. As early as Holy Wednesday, radio and TV stations stopped airing regular shows, thus, all you hear or watch are those relating to the holy season. The solemnity of the week is felt deeper by the 24 -7 reading, or singing, of the passion of the Christ until Easter, by the elderly women in the vicinity. The Holy Week starts and ends with a procession followed by a whole week of flower offerings to the Church, usually by the cutest girls dressed in white. Summer is also the time to espy the loveliest girls and handsomest boys through endless Flores de Mayo or Santa Cruzan. The Reina Elena is the most prestigious title and is usually the loveliest of them all, until in the later years when the sponsors of the Flores de Mayo designates their daughters as the Elena but even if the later is the case, the Santa Cruzan always draws crowds to the streets.
Summer is reconnecting, a time to see the people you haven’t seen in a year because they stay in
There are a handful reasons why people go back to theme parks over and over ---it could be the new rides, new shows, bonding with families, or touring relatives and guests from out of state or out of the country. From my many visits, I observed, theme parks, though built with different themes, were alike in many ways, each makes visitors feel you are in a magical world escaping the bustles of the real world even for just a few hours. I observed too that time don’t change what goes on in theme parks, those parents indulging their kids with toys and souvenir items that will gather dust as they reach home are still there, the unhealthy pricey menus don’t change, the long lines are still there, even longer---it changes one ride’s name to “Indiana Jones and the Temple of 3 Hours Wait.” Theme parks, even if they add, delete, or modify shows, rides, and attractions will be the same – it’s very good at ripping-off our wallets :-)
The experience of theme parks used to be the same for me, but not recently- things were the same, but inside me was different. Where has the gut to try the daring rides come from? Why am I suddenly not afraid anymore? I took the fast rides, the high vertical drops, with my two boys and sometimes would even initiate it. What is going on? I am passing a different cycle of my life and it required revisiting theme parks all over again for me to realize that I’ve changed, that I have grown, that living in the US made me a stronger person, maybe not that strong compared to others, but strong enough to conquer pre-conceived fears.
A different person now…hmmm…the magic of theme parks.
ADAPTATIONS
After church last Saturday evening, the family stopped by
Are we in
PLEASE BUY
Unemployment is at record high, stagflation is worst than recession. People had stopped buying so the government is releasing tax rebates in May for people to spend and infuse cash back into the economy. Everybody, the working class especially, feared being homeless…I don’t think the ordinary taxpayers would spend their rebates checks just for the sake of keeping the economy rolling. I just wish for the rich people to open up their wallets a little wider…please buy…please keep on buying.
Lemuel attended a babysitting class last Saturday in
I enjoy seeing ladies who matches their bags with their clothes or accessories. I know someone who does, as frequent as every other day. I tried once to switch bags, I forgot my building pass. I tried the second time – I forgot my parking pass. I don’t want to try the third time.
Super awake
It’s hard to get up in the mornings especially when it rains. I tend to be so slow and sleepy even at breakfast table.
Abraham suggested I take my coffee from this huge bowl – so I’ll be super awake. The teen makes sense.
Pay per view
Living in the City has its pros and cons. One biggest disadvantage is the high cost of rent. But then, you get to see this everyday…